This has been such a strange year. It started in exile and is ending among loved ones. It’s been a year of major change (but then again, what year isn’t?) and lots of learning about myself.
Some lessons I’ve learned this year:
1. It’s okay to let go of things that don’t suit me anymore.
I think most people tend to hang onto things long after they’ve served their purpose. I feel like there’s probably some kind of evolutionary reason we do this, but I’m not a sociologist or psychologist, so I have no idea. I just know that it’s freeing to finally get rid of things–whether physical objects, old goals that no longer work, or even relationships that are failing.
2. Taking care of myself first is a good thing.
This is still something I’m learning how to navigate, but I do no one any good if I’m tired and/or sick all the time. Eating better, exercising, and better self-care are definitely goals for the New Year.
3. It’s never too late to change course.
If something isn’t making you happy, it’s okay to admit that maybe you’re on the wrong path. No experience is wasted, and there’s no point in sticking something out to prove something to people who don’t really care. The only person I have to prove anything to is myself.
4. I love the paranormal, but ghost hunting is actually really boring.
90% of ghost hunting is just sitting around in a dark location, waiting for something to happen. 9% of ghost hunting is listening back to all the audio you took of the night. And 1% of ghost hunting is stuff happening. It ain’t like the shows, I’ll tell you that.
5. I wish I could be out as asexual in all areas of my life, but it doesn’t feel possible.
I’ve come a long way this year in being more true to myself, but it’s a sad part of being queer that not everyone understands or is accepting. This has been an important lesson for me this year, and I hope that someday I’ll feel more comfortable being out.
And so, I end this year on a high note. I’m home, I’m loved, and I’m striving to do better. What are some things you learned about yourself this year?