We’re at the end of a decade, at the end of another year. It’s amazing how time marches on whether we want it to or not.
One of the only things that is guaranteed in life is change, and hooboy has there been an incredible amount of change in my life recently, and over the last 10 years.
I’m not going to go through a litany of my accomplishments, but I will just say that I’m not the person I was in 2010. I’ve learned from wonderful experiences and my fair share of mistakes. I’ve met amazing new people and left abusive and toxic relationships in the past.
I think that’s all any of us can really hope for. A constant striving towards something better.
2019 was the first year I ever chose a focus word for myself for the year. I chose “belonging” but I’d forgotten my word until a couple days ago. Even though I’d forgotten, my subconscious kept working on it, and I’ve spent the year deliberately building community and finding where I fit in.
2020’s word is “purpose.” I’ve spent years learning what I don’t like doing, and it’s finally time to figure out what I do like doing. I left my PhD program at the end of this past semester and was offered a job almost right away in the town I’m living in in the Mid-West. I know it’s not my dream job, but it’ll pay the bills while I explore other options and find my calling.
For the first time in my life, I’m excited for the future and what it will hold for me. I’ve been watching a lot of Star Wars recently, and one of the themes of those movies is “you create who you are,” and that has given me a lot of hope. I’ve spent so long wishing someone would just come tell me what to do, but that’s not how life works. It’s exhilarating to realize that I’m in the driver’s seat and can choose my own future.
My wish for you, in this coming year, is to strive for something more, to find joy in your life, and to never stop dreaming.